I Think Some People Shouldn't Have Kids

One or them I know is my mother. She did drugs and preferred that over us. Then afterwards she cleaned herself up and then two weeks later she walked out it on us. She never came back. She moved to England to have her own life. She sends us postcards and her number. When I try to call she never returns our calls but on her birthday or Mother Day. She doesn't don't wanna talk about us this past Sunday which hurt very bad. One of my brothers says mom is dead to him and he doesn't care and hate her for what she did. When I mentioned her he quickly changes the subject. He would be like, "Who the hell cares?! She doesn't care." He HATES her. I hate her for what she did but I still want that mother daughter bonding. I wanna go visit her but people are telling me it isn't worth it and she'll just let me down like she always does. My dad is letting me go visit her. I'm having second thoughts. Maybe I can live there I don't know. If my mom doesn't give a shit or preferred drugs over her own kids, then she shouldn't have had us at all