I Want to Find My Soulmate

The thing about soulmates is that it's rumored they appear when you least expect them and they appear when you need them the most. They can be your lovers or they can be a person who sets you on a path in life.

I didn't actually understand the difference between a soulmate and romance until I found mine.

From the day I met her, I knew she was "the one". No hesitations what so ever. She appeared when I needed her the most and I fell in love with her instantly. We were together for two years and due to my own insecurities and shortcomings, she broke up with me.

I spent the next decade of my life trying to find that feeling again... and I accepted that being insecure didn't give me the right to treat her the way I did. I blamed myself for it, I accepted that I destroyed something beautiful. I had to move on and so I did. I spent the last few years working on myself and planned for a future where I could be "content".

Just when I was at my lowest point in life, when I believed that I would never find that feeling again, she reappeared in my life and she showed me what it's like to be completely in love again.

For the first time in a decade, I'm uncertain of my future.
I'm more attentive now.
I understand her better now.
I know what it's like to lose someone you loved so dearly.

And so, I told her, I don't want to be just friends. I want to be so much more. Knowing that I threw a wrench into our growing friendship, one that took over a decade to sprout once again, I told her exactly how I felt.

She told me that she's tired and that she hopes I have a good night.
She didn't say anything in regards to how I felt.

The uncertainty that comes with such a complex relationship, it's undeniably scary.

And so, I texted her the usual pictures that remind me of her because we're so much more than ex-lovers and she did the same to me.

We're friends. Very important friends.
Strong relationships are built on strong friendships.

Why would we do this?
Because as much as I realized that she is my soulmate, she realized I'm hers.

There will be no one in our lives who will understand us better than one another.

Just over a couple of months ago I'd of said yes.

But, no. Love is a temporary thing that isn't worth the inevitable heartbreak and mindfuckery it leads to.

I think they do, but it takes a lot of groundwork and effort to find them. Those damn delightful RomComs make it seem like it happens like a bolt out of the blue, but if it does, its never happened to anyone that I know. If you base your happiness on that idea, I think you will find yourself always tilting at windmills (to coin a phrase). I believe in instant attraction, but the substance behind the pretty face or gorgeous smile is the reality of the person.

I believe they exist and I'm in the same situation. Love like happiness is what you make it. As long as you believe, it's very real. :)

Soulmates are hogwash!! Created by marketing people over the years just to get people to buy their products..relationships are HARD WORK!! PERIOD!!! Especially after all the fairy dust has been washed off and reality hits you between the eyes...don't be fooled by TV commercials, or Disney, or any other entity trying to convince you otherwise...there is no "happily ever after"...you want something, you gotta work for it...there's no "magic formula"

I exist! OK.. maybe.. maybe I'm not perfect but if you just give me a chance you can see the real me

Idk but I'm still looking ☹️

trees exist..

yes, they definitely exist.

Tons on here