I don’t know if he knows me, but if he does, I think he HATES me because I’m ugly and fat...

I don’t know if Papi knows me, but if he does, I think he HATES me because I’m ugly and fat...but it’s not my fault. My foster mother’s real family from India and her Russian boyfriend’s family drugged me with steroids all my life, so how is it my fault?

I think Papi would set me up because I lower his self esteem. I think Papi wants his model ideal girlfriend. (You know how the Spanish guys are), I’m not perfect, but it’s not my fault either it’s India’s fault that I’m not beautiful because India hurt me, my foster mother who is from India had her real family drug me and mutilate me and brainwash an entire Russian family against me to destroy my entire life, that’s why today I look like shit.

Sorry Papi, I know that my ugly face scares you and my ugly body and I ask that you pray to God to take me with Him, please, please, if you have any heart at all...because I myself am not happy. Just pray Papi because I don’t think you pray and I ask that you pray and you pray hard and good because I know that I scare you and I know that you want to set me up because you know that I’m ugly and fat and you know that I scare you...and that hurts me, YOU HURT ME!