I Wonder What My Purpose Here Is
SSRIs are a strange reality in this world.
I find myself in inertia between whether to live my life medicated and be a "happy" zombie or to live with my flatness in a state of neutrality. It raises so many questions.
Is it addressing a problem, or is it patching over the reality of modern life?
Does ambition come from happiness or are those like myself just ambitionless in the eyes of society?
or perhaps our ambitions are simple and aren't perceived as worthwhile or seen as short sighted/limited.
When it all comes down to it we are just receptors for stimulus, hoping we feel something good enough to give our life a sense of meaning or to feel like it was all worth it.
Experiencing as much as we can while we can in the hopes of some form of revelation that will sate our hunger for more and bring us a sense of contentment.
Life is a strange experience, as is the world that facilitates it.
I find myself in inertia between whether to live my life medicated and be a "happy" zombie or to live with my flatness in a state of neutrality. It raises so many questions.
Is it addressing a problem, or is it patching over the reality of modern life?
Does ambition come from happiness or are those like myself just ambitionless in the eyes of society?
or perhaps our ambitions are simple and aren't perceived as worthwhile or seen as short sighted/limited.
When it all comes down to it we are just receptors for stimulus, hoping we feel something good enough to give our life a sense of meaning or to feel like it was all worth it.
Experiencing as much as we can while we can in the hopes of some form of revelation that will sate our hunger for more and bring us a sense of contentment.
Life is a strange experience, as is the world that facilitates it.
