The Dark Night of the Soul [Spirituality & Religion]

I apologize for my short answer here, but I am unable to answer the way I would like because I am not well right now. But first I would say that you must not look for a permanent solution that would harm you, for a temporary problem. This too, shall pass. The closer you draw to God, the faster he can help you heal and make you feel better. He is always there for you. Sommore you read God's word and pray to him, the better you will feel. God is not the author of confusion. Satan is, and that is why you are feeling so bad. He loves to make people feel miserable, so you must draw your mind away from negative suggestions from him and turn to God for help and God will help you. The very reason itself, that you feel bad, is because you have drawn away from God. You have strayed from him, not the other way around. That's what happens to us when we start feeling the way you do now. It is not your fault. It happens to all of us. Draw nigh unto God and He will draw nigh unto you. And I will leave you with my article I just wrote. I apologize once again that I cannot write more right now. The Bible says that when we keep our heart and mind on Jesus, he gives us perfect peace in our heart and mind. Please read the following article. If you need to talk to me further, you may write to me in a private message if you wish. Or if you have any questions. Please take good care of yourself right now and I hope you feel well soon.

https://similarworlds.com/19-Spirituality-Religion/2773324-Like-the-old-song-says-its-never-too-late-to-start

You will find peace in the night, in solitude, in nature. Get your insense out and your therapeutic music on, breath, relax and feeeeeeeeel :)

You are shamanising

When I was a teenager, I had a huge existential crisis and for years I didn't believe that anything around me was real or really happening, and that I was just shifting back and forth between two kinds of dream. I started questioning whether "real" even meant anything at all. I didn't know who I was or whether I was "real," either.

It's never gone away totally, to this day I'm unsure whether the world around me is genuine. It got easier to live with that uncertainty, though, and I try to live in the moment as much as I can, and get happiness from little things as I swim alone and lost in a stormy and boundless ocean.

I must keep reminding myself that there is nothing I can do. Trying to do anything is what this is about, learning that control is an illusion. They pain is awful! I find it helps to read about others who say they other side is beautiful. I can't seem to wrap my head around how that is possible but it's something to hang onto.

I think I already went through that three years ago. Once you get out of it you either become more ignorant, you commit suicide or you gain wisdom. Good luck. Just don't try to distract yourself and don't commit suicide.