I Sometimes Just Wonder

What my life would have been like had I followed multiple teachers' advice to me to never stop writing. Could I have written books by now?
I wonder what I would have been doing had I never stopped playing my flute. I see plenty of people on youtube, some REALLY good, and getting paid for simply playing beautifully and/or creating their own music to play and share with others.

Meanwhile, I work for a large company and am nothing more than a number.😔