I Am Always Tired
Why? Because I'm always worried about my parents talking trash about me. They seem to pick the time when I go upstairs to bed to start discussing me. Of course I hear my name being mentioned downstairs and must listen in. Sometimes it's so bad if I even hear them talking to one another downstairs I force myself to stay awake in fear that they are talking smack about me.
Sometimes they talk crap about me in a bad way like they'll say I'm lazy or too sneaky and I'm up to something. The whole up to something thing is because of coming clean to them about using drugs. Everything I do that they deem sneaky or questionable they jump to the drug conclusion. For example my mom searched through my backpack once because I wasn't doing very well in a class. She thought I was on drugs, I was but there was nothing in there drug related. If she searched my room however she would have actually busted me. But ever since I admitted my problem to them I feel I've been under a microscope more so than before. I hate it.
I don't know because of my paranoia I'm lucky if I can muster more than 4-5 hours some nights. This is probably why I am constantly napping on the couch.
Sometimes they talk crap about me in a bad way like they'll say I'm lazy or too sneaky and I'm up to something. The whole up to something thing is because of coming clean to them about using drugs. Everything I do that they deem sneaky or questionable they jump to the drug conclusion. For example my mom searched through my backpack once because I wasn't doing very well in a class. She thought I was on drugs, I was but there was nothing in there drug related. If she searched my room however she would have actually busted me. But ever since I admitted my problem to them I feel I've been under a microscope more so than before. I hate it.
I don't know because of my paranoia I'm lucky if I can muster more than 4-5 hours some nights. This is probably why I am constantly napping on the couch.
