I Sometimes Just Feel Like Crying
I know it may seem that I trie to complain about life. But I don’t, I only talk about what I am going through in life.
When I was younger I had a golden retriever that was the best dog I’ve ever had. He meant the world to me. He was a true friend to me that no one in this world can replace. He loved to stay right by my side no matter and no matter where. In the mornings whenever I got up as a kid he was always there at the entrance of my bedroom almost as if he was going to stop anyone from coming into my bedroom. He would always follow me around the house no matter and all around our property. He was my everything and now he’s gone for good. That day still hurts me a lot, even right now typing this is making me miss him even more. I would always love on him and he would always love me back even more. On days that I was feeling down he just knew how to make me feel a little better. But the thing that I remember the most from 9 years ago was a time that was scary for me. There I was walking through the woods on our 6 acre land which is more than 90% covered in trees mixed with hills. As I was walking in the woods my dog Bruno was walking with me. As I began to get further in the woods without me knowing because I was kinda small, I had become lost and could not find my way back home. As I sat my back on a tree and began to sob and it got harder. I could hear multiple faint screams. It was my parents calling for me because they could not find me. I cried back but they could not hear. So I told Bruno to go home multiple times and of which he ignored. It was probably near 35 minutes I was stuck in the woods with the darkness just about to settle in. I told him to go get help. He looked at me and barked and started to walk in a certain direction, not turning. I knew that he was trying to get me to follow him. I did just that. About 10 minutes later I could finally see my house again at the other end of the field. My parents were so scared and nearly cried because they thought I was gone. I was still sobbing a little bit at this point but I knew I was safe at home. Without Bruno I would have never found my home again without the need of a full search party which search and rescue. He was my true friend and most importantly a true friend that will forever remain in my heart. I miss him so. My true problem arises when I was going to public. At first he would wait 7 hours at my bus stop for me to get home. He tried getting in the bus with me many times. He never wanted to leave my side ever. The more I went to school the more he stopped coming back home until one day he never came back. And the day I found out he was dead. That day hurt me the worst in all my life inlcluding up till this day. Everyday I blame myself for him leaving and his death. If I would have just stayed homeschooled I would still have him around. But now he’s gone for good and it’s all my fault.
It is extremely telling you how I feel. I was crying the entire time and at some points I could barely breathe. I wish I knew how to make this easier on me but I don’t.
When I was younger I had a golden retriever that was the best dog I’ve ever had. He meant the world to me. He was a true friend to me that no one in this world can replace. He loved to stay right by my side no matter and no matter where. In the mornings whenever I got up as a kid he was always there at the entrance of my bedroom almost as if he was going to stop anyone from coming into my bedroom. He would always follow me around the house no matter and all around our property. He was my everything and now he’s gone for good. That day still hurts me a lot, even right now typing this is making me miss him even more. I would always love on him and he would always love me back even more. On days that I was feeling down he just knew how to make me feel a little better. But the thing that I remember the most from 9 years ago was a time that was scary for me. There I was walking through the woods on our 6 acre land which is more than 90% covered in trees mixed with hills. As I was walking in the woods my dog Bruno was walking with me. As I began to get further in the woods without me knowing because I was kinda small, I had become lost and could not find my way back home. As I sat my back on a tree and began to sob and it got harder. I could hear multiple faint screams. It was my parents calling for me because they could not find me. I cried back but they could not hear. So I told Bruno to go home multiple times and of which he ignored. It was probably near 35 minutes I was stuck in the woods with the darkness just about to settle in. I told him to go get help. He looked at me and barked and started to walk in a certain direction, not turning. I knew that he was trying to get me to follow him. I did just that. About 10 minutes later I could finally see my house again at the other end of the field. My parents were so scared and nearly cried because they thought I was gone. I was still sobbing a little bit at this point but I knew I was safe at home. Without Bruno I would have never found my home again without the need of a full search party which search and rescue. He was my true friend and most importantly a true friend that will forever remain in my heart. I miss him so. My true problem arises when I was going to public. At first he would wait 7 hours at my bus stop for me to get home. He tried getting in the bus with me many times. He never wanted to leave my side ever. The more I went to school the more he stopped coming back home until one day he never came back. And the day I found out he was dead. That day hurt me the worst in all my life inlcluding up till this day. Everyday I blame myself for him leaving and his death. If I would have just stayed homeschooled I would still have him around. But now he’s gone for good and it’s all my fault.
It is extremely telling you how I feel. I was crying the entire time and at some points I could barely breathe. I wish I knew how to make this easier on me but I don’t.
22-25, M
