I Am An Empath

well scorpioxix the words you used in your question pulls my mind to Plato's allegory of the cave, we all want to stay out of the cave once we have seen the sun. now I know I could eventually explain it better but it will need some refining.

True, Plato is not for casual communication... My question was more WHY did YOU wall yourself up? Most of us empaths have "shut ourselves off" through a variety of ways. Our abilities are such that unless raised in an environment conducive to our AWARENESS, we find our selves growing up in a world that smothers the Divine and expels massive amounts of negative energy. It's a tough life for someone who "feels" EVERYTHING. When I was 14 I had a "breakdown". I was surrounded, stalked by spirits who wanted, needed me for a variety of reasons. I told a pastor at a friends church and they did what Christian's do. They prayed and told all spirits never to approach me again, in the name of God, never. Amen. And it worked. I was normal. My light was off. But when you deny your nature, nature will find a way. I won't bore you with details. But it comes to this, for me, I am afraid. A horrible gripping like I am alone and six years old again fear. I keep sea salt and sage with me, even in my car. Part of me wonders if it is a remnant of the Christian magick, ensuring I never cross over. But my logic dictates I am stronger than Christian magick, and I wonder if somehow I keep myself cloistered intentionally? But I don't know why. Point is, Sir Peanut, the secret to getting out is knowing what locked you in... I think