I Miss Myself

I was once a fun loving flirty innocent girl and now I am a washed up cold thing. I feel as though I cannot feel love. What I have done to my mind and body in the last year makes me feel like a bottle without a message on the shore... something is missing. I look at pictures now and that young look full of wonder and hope are gone. I have seen so much darkness that now I am having trouble seeing the light. Is this growing up or have I lost myself along the way? Who knows! I do find it funny I act my goofy self at work at 10 o clock at night otherwise I am shy and scared. Everything scares me now too! It was I was fearless for a minutes, but now... I am a scared shy timid person that just wants to soar with personality! Like I used to be, a funky, open minded, goofy, fun loving, adventurous young lady!