Have you ever reached a point in your life where?

There just seems to be nothing exciting or motivating for me, like I have just pretty much lost everything worth striving for, I’m even starting to lose care in my health, at least I’m not battling, I earn a crust working a shitty day job, run a freelance photography/graphic design business on the side which was a struggle due to businesses being closed during covid and even I’m losing my interest in that along with my creative mojo, and I have to confess I have dabbled in a little coke this year but making sure that doesn’t become a problem. I feel like I have no one in my life, apart from the amazing people I have met here and EP over the years, and the most distant friends I have in this world are my closest because the connection is genuine with no perks.

But that being said, I feel like I’m starting to lose my way again and running out of flying 💩s to give, Ive even been drinking heaps, and pretty much only eating twice a week and only eat when the hunger pains get annoying. I haven’t even followed up on my health checks I was meant to get done.
Lately I’ve just been feeling like a prisoner in my own life and I just can’t seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel at all.