I Am Back
I left SW a couple of months ago -- just too much tough stuff to deal with in my world -- no good to anyone -- felt bad about bringing negative energy to my friends. I didn't think it would get better any time soon. I erased my history here (more or less) and deleted my account.
Or at least thought I did.
A few days ago, I wanted to check my email and, through force of habit (and browser history), inadvertently ended up back here instead of at hotmail, arriving to a message asking me if I wanted to "reactivate my account". For reasons I don't quite understand, I did.
That was the best decision I have made in a long time. There are good things here. There is light in the darkness.
I'm know that I'm a long way from being back to the way I was, but I have realized something. I don't want to go back to the way I was.
I want more. And to my surprise, "more" doesn't seem like such an impossibility.
Or at least thought I did.
A few days ago, I wanted to check my email and, through force of habit (and browser history), inadvertently ended up back here instead of at hotmail, arriving to a message asking me if I wanted to "reactivate my account". For reasons I don't quite understand, I did.
That was the best decision I have made in a long time. There are good things here. There is light in the darkness.
I'm know that I'm a long way from being back to the way I was, but I have realized something. I don't want to go back to the way I was.
I want more. And to my surprise, "more" doesn't seem like such an impossibility.
61-69, M
