I Think Love Is Some Kind Of Cruel Experiment

I am haunted by past relationships with women. I can't sleep well. My dreams torment me. My mind constantly punishes me for having shown so much love and passion. I gave them everything but where did they go?

I want the dreams to go away, I dont want to feel this heartbreak. I tried so hard for so many years just to have a quiet, simple, lasting love, but they always fell apart; no matter how careful I was, or how much effort I put into repairing them. Not fair.

I just want peace, I want to let go. I want to be free from any hold love has on me. I did the best I could to find love but it was not meant for me.