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I Had a Psychosis

Well I have Psychosis since almost a year... I'm under medications, not to mention their side effects on my body... I have every week a blood test. I feel like im Disconnected from life and living my life. What a life I'm living in...
Eventually, thanks to god for everything happend with me through this phase. I hope to go through this peacfully .
rckt148 · 61-69, M
I live with a bone disease that should have me crippled ,but I still walk .
Christ totally healed my Daughter that was crippled from 8 -12 ,she has no sign of every having a bone disease ,or ever having broken legs .
Some doctors say its impossible ,some its a miracle ,,We like the word Impossible just fine ,LOL She walks ,she just turned 37 ,she still walks and works very hard ,I would not want to do all she does ..but she is no longer in a chair or body brace as before .
I was arrogant enough after paying for back surgery to say I did not need God I fixed my problems myself (My kids were taken from me 12 yrs so I did not know about my Daughters condition at the time )
But when I ended up crippled again and homeless ,yea God got my attention .
The blessings after them just kept coming .
getting my kids back ,the family we have became ,and the obvious ,God has His hand on us is clear and all the reason I need for me to believe with no doubt .
Our Father loves the word impossible ,but just like the blind man Christ healed with spit and clay on his eyes ,,He did nothing wrong ,nor had his family .
But Christ had a purpose for His blindness .
So I tell myself daily ,I may not be able to do the things I would like to do .
But I know for certain ,had things gone my way ,and God had not shown me who was boss ,,My family would be lost ,and myself at the top of the burn pile .
He allowed a lot to be taken from me ,but He gave me back so much more .
And had I been back on my job ,trying to get rich one more time .
I would not have been here when my kids were teens and needed me ,
I would not have been around to take care of my Grandpa and he would have ended up in a nursing home ,My Dad ,I was there to take care of him the last 3 yrs of his life .
To finally be able to forgive my Mom and a brother who committed suicide .
I had finally been able to forgave Mom for all the things she done to me ,
I was there to take care of her the last 14 months of her life .
And when I forgave my brother for hurting me ,I was the best Brother I could be to him ,So now my conscience is clear ,I was given time to make it all right .
And my example of forgiveness is now a big deal to my kids .
They say if I can forgive after all I have been through ,so can they .
So I Hated all the pain ,the time I was crippled ,all the loss ,wives ,homes ,my kids ,but now looking back ,I see it was All ,part of a plan .
I believe even those who have died in faith only sleep ,their healing is coming
So all things work together for them "Who are called ,and love the Lord "..
Keep the faith ,don't question the plan ,your reward is coming
You just have to remember the fire sucks ,but the reward will be worth it .
Hang on there ,I said a little prayer for you .
Have a blessed day

 
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