I Am Emotional

I love my family. I love seeing them happy and enjoying their calm lives here instead of our home state. I know they sacrificed a lot for me and I’m turn I sacrificed everything I had to move them here. I like making them proud everyday I go to work and take charge of everything in the house. Groceries, rent, light etc. I love that feeling of helping. I’m happy that they’re proud of me that I’m going to back to school and that I’m motivated to pursue my career.

However it’s hard for me. While they support me in many things I still feel like they don’t know the extent of how depressed i feel and they anxiety that courses through my veins. In every other aspect I wouldn’t want to change a thing but o wish they were a bit more understanding. The things I saw, some of the things I did. Holiday season always makes me feel this deep blue in my heart that while pains me makes me appreciate everything that I have right now. I’m happy I’m able to provide for them. But there’s just still a small barrier that I can’t really get across to get closer to them and I hope one day I’ll be able to change that..