I Need to Vent

I really want to cry and get some of these feelings out when I get home. It's been a long time since I last let myself because I've been afraid that once I admit to being sad, I'll fall in too deep and become suicidal. It's happened before and honestly, suppressing my feelings is easier than dealing with that again. But my loneliness is really eating me up lately, due to suppression. So I just want to cry and listen to my own thoughts for a while. I don't want any advice, probably won't read any comments. I literally just needed to vent. Thank you.