I Hate Emotional Blackmail
I lived with it for a long time, and much of my life was spent making everyone else happy. I don't think that a moment will pass when I do not love people, love humanity - but with a different perspective.
There is a freedom in admitting what has taken place and admitting that some thing can not merely be "overcome." Sometimes the only answer is to move forward, and that can mean moving to a different path. There is a good deal of empathy left - merely because I don't understand how you stop caring for humans you love. But, when you admit to yourself the things that have happened and have soured what you had, it is all too clear that the history can not be erased. There are so many moments that should never have been, but I never inhabited them. I thought I could maintain, but I was ignoring the fact that, as an emotional being I need connections. I found many - here and on other sites with wonderful people, and you have all enriched my life greatly. But there is this great gulf that should have been filled with something beautiful. I don't ask for pity; I was an enabler for a very long time. I think I merely wanted to say that if you are in a situation where you are being abused - physically, verbally, or emotionally - find a way out. I know you are scared to say anything, but people are there to help you. I'm here if you need to talk. Get help. Your life matters. Your dreams and desires matter. Life is too short to sign over your will to someone who only wants to control and crush it. Love yourself.
There is a freedom in admitting what has taken place and admitting that some thing can not merely be "overcome." Sometimes the only answer is to move forward, and that can mean moving to a different path. There is a good deal of empathy left - merely because I don't understand how you stop caring for humans you love. But, when you admit to yourself the things that have happened and have soured what you had, it is all too clear that the history can not be erased. There are so many moments that should never have been, but I never inhabited them. I thought I could maintain, but I was ignoring the fact that, as an emotional being I need connections. I found many - here and on other sites with wonderful people, and you have all enriched my life greatly. But there is this great gulf that should have been filled with something beautiful. I don't ask for pity; I was an enabler for a very long time. I think I merely wanted to say that if you are in a situation where you are being abused - physically, verbally, or emotionally - find a way out. I know you are scared to say anything, but people are there to help you. I'm here if you need to talk. Get help. Your life matters. Your dreams and desires matter. Life is too short to sign over your will to someone who only wants to control and crush it. Love yourself.
