I Hate Emotional Blackmail
Is it emotional blackmail if they are unaware of it? Yes... yes it is. Maybe they do it subconsciously? That doesn't mean that they intend for it to hurt, but it does.
I feel so guilty. Even if this change is real, that does not negate the 20 years of abuse. OH the longing in those looks - a feeling that I can't return. The guilt and the sorrow he claims to finally feel - is it real? How long will it last? I don't know. It seems real, and he legitimately wants to change. I have been adamant that these changes should be for himself, for his daughter.
It is like being stuck in Purgatory looking at your life under a microscope but only able to see a moment and only getting glimpses of the bigger picture.
I feel so guilty. Even if this change is real, that does not negate the 20 years of abuse. OH the longing in those looks - a feeling that I can't return. The guilt and the sorrow he claims to finally feel - is it real? How long will it last? I don't know. It seems real, and he legitimately wants to change. I have been adamant that these changes should be for himself, for his daughter.
It is like being stuck in Purgatory looking at your life under a microscope but only able to see a moment and only getting glimpses of the bigger picture.
