I Use Experience Project As A Diary

Day 51. July 28th, 10:11 AM:
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so I'm back home now, been a nice vacation but its time to face the real world. Now i gotta study my butt off for the next 2 weeks till i take that final and PRAY that i would pass, i just need to pass to graduate. so yeah..

but thats not whats on my mind lately.... i miss her far more beyond that what words could explain.. i miss everything about her.. i dont care if she is still defensive or whatever.. i just still miss her being in my life..

her birthday is in mid-August. i cant tell which day exactly, the 13th or the 17th and i swear it kills me that i cant remember the specific day.. I promised her i would be there to bid her a happy birthday, I'm probably the last person she would wanna talk to that day but i always keep my promises..

i...took a look at out old chats, the pictures, the screenshots... i dont even know what to say.. all those memories going back to life.. god.. i just pray that she is happy now, i just want her to be happy.. i lover her enough to just want nothing more than her happiness, even if its over mine.. yeah..


Physical check : tired.

mental check: drained

psychological check: lost