Every time I see him...

I feel like I get weak every time I see him. He makes me feel like I’m in heaven every time I hear him. I can only hope and pray that God takes me if he’s having a baby because I can’t live like that...I just can’t, it would destroy my inner being. I feel too drawn to him, I came too far. I prayed to God that he would make me into a beautiful woman to be with him someday, so he won’t feel embarrassed, but if she’s having his baby, I won’t go on another day, I’ll let God take me.