I Don'T Know What To Make Of It
First of all, Happy Birthday! :D
I know, I should have called, or posted on your Facebook profile, or visited, but I am just not there yet.
I don't feel like meeting any one from the past. It just makes me feel lost, and incompetent, and never fails to transport me back into the whole High School environment that we never managed to leave or grow out of till the very end.
You were a friend. Believe it or not, it's true. But right now, I am in a place where I need to be alone. I feel like I need to stay away from everyone. I am not regularly in touch with my close knit friend circle either.
And I think they understand. Even when I don't tell them everything, I think they understand. You would too, if I told you, but I am hesitant to do so. I don't want you to think that all the time and effort you put in me was a waste of time.
You were a good guide. Probably one of the best we ever had. Funny and smart. You managed to get things in our heads even when we didn't want them to land there.
I will come and visit when I feel like it's time. It doesn't feel like it's time now. There's too much I have to do. Too much I have to prove. To myself, and to you all.
But then, you would understand I think. You even described how it felt like when students just stopped contacting you. But there's always a fresh batch to groom, isn't there?
We all will come back at some point of time I guess. If not to thank you, then to show you that we did it.
I know, I should have called, or posted on your Facebook profile, or visited, but I am just not there yet.
I don't feel like meeting any one from the past. It just makes me feel lost, and incompetent, and never fails to transport me back into the whole High School environment that we never managed to leave or grow out of till the very end.
You were a friend. Believe it or not, it's true. But right now, I am in a place where I need to be alone. I feel like I need to stay away from everyone. I am not regularly in touch with my close knit friend circle either.
And I think they understand. Even when I don't tell them everything, I think they understand. You would too, if I told you, but I am hesitant to do so. I don't want you to think that all the time and effort you put in me was a waste of time.
You were a good guide. Probably one of the best we ever had. Funny and smart. You managed to get things in our heads even when we didn't want them to land there.
I will come and visit when I feel like it's time. It doesn't feel like it's time now. There's too much I have to do. Too much I have to prove. To myself, and to you all.
But then, you would understand I think. You even described how it felt like when students just stopped contacting you. But there's always a fresh batch to groom, isn't there?
We all will come back at some point of time I guess. If not to thank you, then to show you that we did it.
26-30, F