I Know Miracles Happen
My goodness do I know. So many times God has helped me when I of course didn't deserve it in the slightest. I mean we reach these points after however many foolish decisions we've made yet the moment u call to Him, He's there. Just a cple of times He's been there for me.. I went into a very dark place. I ended up having a friend staying with me who paid for EVERY THING. I became 110% dependant on this person and without him, had nothing. The day came where he over stepped some boundaries so I kicked him out without even thinking. The door closed and my heart dropped.. What do I do now? I have nothing, no one, I'm seriously SOL. So I crawled to God in desperation and prayed and meditated and somehow I got a job right down the road that paid me more than enough to get everything back on track. Somehow all of my bills were up to date and I was back on my feet in no time.
One other was after this job. I fell madly in love with it, I made it my life. But it didn't work out and I went into a dark place again. I became in denial not even thinking twice about bills being paid or anything being taken care of.. I just spent whatever I had on very foolish things. Ultimately, I became 6 months behind on rent, and electric. I quickly got a glimpse of reality and never thought I was gonna be able to fix this. Had it not been for God there is NO WAY I would've. I got a 3 day eviction notice around the same time God gave me a job so I called my landlord. She said I needed to get something notarized that listed a good enough pay plan to get caught up so I did. I began working and searching for outside help.. My church said they could help a bit but not much due to hardships of their own.. But then one day at work I got a call, it was pastor, he told me they really felt they needed to help me so they had sent a $750 check to my landlord and gave me a $250 gift card for food. I signed up for HEAP and they paid off my electric right before they turned it off.. I followed my pay plan and somehow managed to pay off $2,250 in a month and a half and everything was back to normal. Things like that can not be done no matter how hard I try. It was ONLY because of God's grace and strength that things worked out for me. There are soo many times that He has intervened for me.. I can only pray He does it again since I apparently can't keep a job if my life depended on it ha although I think it's only because I lost sight of God and started to drift away, and as I mentioned in my other story, He will allow desperation to help u come back to Him. I pray now that I am I can get a similar job position since I really did love this one so much. Kinda seemed like I had finally found where I belong as far as work is concerned.
One other was after this job. I fell madly in love with it, I made it my life. But it didn't work out and I went into a dark place again. I became in denial not even thinking twice about bills being paid or anything being taken care of.. I just spent whatever I had on very foolish things. Ultimately, I became 6 months behind on rent, and electric. I quickly got a glimpse of reality and never thought I was gonna be able to fix this. Had it not been for God there is NO WAY I would've. I got a 3 day eviction notice around the same time God gave me a job so I called my landlord. She said I needed to get something notarized that listed a good enough pay plan to get caught up so I did. I began working and searching for outside help.. My church said they could help a bit but not much due to hardships of their own.. But then one day at work I got a call, it was pastor, he told me they really felt they needed to help me so they had sent a $750 check to my landlord and gave me a $250 gift card for food. I signed up for HEAP and they paid off my electric right before they turned it off.. I followed my pay plan and somehow managed to pay off $2,250 in a month and a half and everything was back to normal. Things like that can not be done no matter how hard I try. It was ONLY because of God's grace and strength that things worked out for me. There are soo many times that He has intervened for me.. I can only pray He does it again since I apparently can't keep a job if my life depended on it ha although I think it's only because I lost sight of God and started to drift away, and as I mentioned in my other story, He will allow desperation to help u come back to Him. I pray now that I am I can get a similar job position since I really did love this one so much. Kinda seemed like I had finally found where I belong as far as work is concerned.
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