I Just Want to Scream

I feel like I am literally dying on the inside. Everything hurts. My heart is being shredded, blended and squeezed. I want to physically be sick. I want to scream. Nothing is good. Nothing is right. Panic attack after panic attack. This is the worst I've felt for a while and it really hurts. I feel so sad. I can't even explain.

Sorry for the meltdown... :/