I Have Made Love In a Car

We decided to hang out at Midtown. It's a small unknown bar and grill. We talked for quite a few hours. He told me about his service time overseas. I told him about my past life that essentially revolves around abandonment. Something I don't talk about with anyone. He had discussed before story telling that "you don't like it that I know you and every time I break a wall down with you, you try to build it all back up. I know you don't want to let anyone in. And it bothers you that I know that." I didn't do anything but stare at him for a while. He's much more perceptive than I had assumed. I went into providing story examples of how I got to be that way and he had this aura of peace and understanding. We left the bar shortly after and got into my car. He asked what I wanted to do and that "nothing has to happen. You're obviously going through a lot now with your married life and I want you to clear your mind. I am okay if you need time off so you can get right. I'm here to be your friend too. I don't have some expectation that when I see you, that I need anything. You're a smart and beautiful woman and I'm here for you." I just looked into his brown eyes and after some seconds passed, simply said "I don't want time off." He literally grabbed me and kissed me hard. The rest is history. I feel the passion on both ends. It's a very strong connection that I'm not used to and quite scared of. I do want to experience everything and learn to open myself to someone else. But scares the crap outta me.