I Feel Like My World Is Falling Apart

More like it is falling apart. But it already fell apart, maybe twice already. The tiny shards of what I used to be are now falling right through my fingers. It's like I'm disintegrating, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. Meds don't help, cutting doesn't anymore, it's like my body is just building immunity to the things I used to like. I mean, I used to love minecraft. But now it's so boring and dull, you couldn't pay me to play it. And it's like everything is times 500. No matter what happens I feel as though it will ultimately lead to my bloody demise. And when I say bloody, I don't mean it like the BBC English way.

My life has been going downhill at a 135 degree angle since August of.. I'm not even sure what year. It seems as though the graph of my life should end somewhere close to where I'm at now. It can't possibly go lower than this. Or can it?

Sierra would know. I'm just a spokesperson though. I used to just clean up what she said a bit. Now I can't even hear what she's thinking.. And she's me. Like the inner core of a filled doughnut. And I'm just the frosting, and there's this entire la<x>yer of dough between us, but I haven't even heard her mumbling for months. I guess she's gone. She left nothing more than the shell of a human