I Think About Life

I still need to forgive you.................Why can't I just stop allowing myself to being so easily offended and just be quick to forgive? Why do I keep going over it over and over in my mind, why am I not happy unless I tell everyone in front of you as I fault find in you while ignoring the fact that I was the most corrupt of all? Why can't I live out my faith? Sure I may go on pretending that I'm all pious, knowing better, and I chose to keep my mouth shut on all of this, but it's still going on on the inside of me, therefore I am still corrupted when it comes to you.....And I'm sorry, I am really sorry. I Just wish that I didn't have all of this bitterness inside of me. I love you, and I want to forgive you, but I just keep going in circles in my mind.