I Think About Life

I get the fragrance of life to love you, and to ask you to love me in return as brother and sister in Christ. I get the fragrance of life that yes you are bad, but that you are also good and to accept you. I get the fragrance of life that you could come back if things got better, and its gave me hope......I think about you everyday, trying to wrap my mind around what happened between us......But the truth is that I just want creating the life and power that God wants me to have, but the truth is that I just want to let you go. To wash you away from my memory, why because you were abusive towards me and my children.....and it's insane to think that you'll have a change of heart.....even though you were discieved into thinking that I wanted you more than just a friend and doctor....and that's why you pushed me away by hurting me......what a gong show. Yes I've missed you, but it's time to let one last wound heal and that is me missing you and wanting you back....now I know why you abused me, and I do forgive you for that...I do love you, but I just don't want to miss you anymore. So I am taking my heart back......and the next time I see you, I know that there will be a nurse in the room with us I know I know for my protection, but it feels more like a prison for the victim, it didn't have to be like this, if only you had christian love in your heart.....maybe you won't abuse me anymore....As for me, I am right with God again, the spirit of Jezebelle is no longer corrupting me, just so you know, I was never a perverse wh0re, satan is.good bye my friend, hope to see your smiling face in heaven some day.