I Know I Have a Guardian Angel

your politeness is refreshing, you are in no way being nosy.
i do have other incidents, one such is some thing i am not proud of,
i tried end my life, not the time i wished to return to where i had been. to end my life, to stop the suffering of some one i loved. a love that was forbidden,a love that had gone no further than a feeling. her torment at the hands of others merely because we were in love caused me pain for her.
i had convinced myself if i was not hear, they had no reason to torment her.
i went to a place from my past that had great meaning to me, if i were to die it would be where i could truly die in peace., a place where no child would find a dead body.
as i lead there dieing, as the light surrounded me, as i was drifting, she came.
the light in front of me slowly turned into dark, out of the dark her face appeared right in front of mine, i felt her warmth she was sat on my chest, her hands on my shoulders i felt a weight on my chest. she lent forward and spoke, a soft caring tone, sweet and angelic, she said not yet. i then saw all the people who had done me wrong, all those who had hurt the ones i loved, they were drinking and dancing on a grave with my name.
i heard her voice, she said, not for them.
a strength came to me which helped me back.
the way i tried to end my life should have killed me.
you have asked if she always looks the same, her tone is the only thing that changes, at times she is transparent in appearance, depending on the light, she keeps to the shadows, she is reluctant to come into the light but will.
her physical features never change, nor dose her shape, she just looks faded at times.
when in full form with her mouth closed she is strangle pretty.
her personality is mischievous and almost childish, yet stern. she has the ability to say what she wants with one look. a trait i have seen in some teenagers that know to much of the world.