I Think Too Much

I'm barely making it, boldtimer. I've been trying to focus on God instead and accept that everyone has their lot in life and I don't neccessarily get to share in it. It hurts when you've invested so much time and emotion, failing to understand that Fate governs life and your dreams and desires have no influence. It hurts when you were the one pillar in their life and upon separation, they fell apart and either doesn't know how to fix things or is just unmotivated to do so. Hurts within hurts. Right now I watch, i hope and i pray

You are young and strong just keep going. you have so many things yet to see and do, the world is about to go thru an electronic and scientific revolution that will open the universe to everyone. you will sit one day and watch people on other planets and even you may go somewhere and see other worlds. You younger folks are sitting in the best seats in the house.

I have this same thing going thru my mind. How are you dealing with it. I am a total mess. Just saw her pic just by chance and I am already tears. How do you go on without. I am almost ready to quit everything, I just cant keep up a face with everyone around me.

Thanks, boldtimer. I'm caring enough to give that seat up though :) If you're implying that you're too old and have seen enough, so you don't have to continue trying, I'm not buying it!

Love is a complete arsehole sometimes

I know that feeling 😢