I Am Socially Akward

I cant even get myself to message people... Like sometimes i wanna message a lot of people on here (EP) after viewing some of their experiences (aka stalking them) or having a discussion in the comments and so.. Then i realise that i do wanna get to know them more and talk to them but holy shit my social anxiety is just there laughing its arse off because we both know i wont message them. Its so fucking frustrating and hopeless to the point of not talking to those people unless they messaged me first.... Fml