I need a lot of help.

Help! I cannot function on my own! I never really could. I need to be part of a unit, preferably part of a close extended family, but having good friends involved would work too. I need to be with certain other people. Gretchen Sitten in 4th grade said she wanted to be with me but I could not believe that anyone wanted to be with me, and, particularly not her, after I had behaved around her and how she had reacted a couple years earlier. Psychologically, as in socially, emotionally, intellectually, physically, etc. I need to be with certain others indefinitely, with strong attachments to each other, to place, objects and activities. The American way of focusing on individual self-interest, with no sense of connection or attachment, and no academic, vocational, or residential security has never really worked for me. Perhaps my son died at the age of 19 of a fentanyl overdose because he was not getting enough love from us but he also had a penchant for delinquency.