SW-User
Wow I did take the time to read this and I was completely mind blown to how this exactly describes my pain of existenal depression, and I had several attempts at ending my life and two occasions were only last year. Some occasions I thought I was too chicken shit to finish myself properly, but it's like a force of this earth keeps telling me to hold on, but the reason is hidden.
lovebutterflyangel · 31-35, F
@SW-User I think that our mental health system needs revamping. A lot of people are diagnosed as having depression but what kind of depression? What causes that person to become depressed? Address the underlying issue rather than just giving us pills. I'm glad this entry could help you in some way. :)
SW-User
@lovebutterflyangel in all against the med stuff as from experience when I was a lot younger, they did more harm than good for my sense of wellbeing, seroquel was some sick toxic stuff. I did slip into illicit substance addiction for periods of time in my life as a coping mechanism, "self medicating" as some would say. But a lot of my depression over the years evolved from bad memories.
lovebutterflyangel · 31-35, F
Even with medication, you still have to put in effort to get better. When you ignore your problems and do things like self-medicate or dissociate, you open yourself up to problems in the future where things try to surface. I get triggered a lot into fits of anger to ignore the feelings I don't want to admit to. I also haven't always been able to deal with my issues due to being silenced, etc. One of my doctors put me on zyprexa which turned me into a zombie; they've put me on many others as well. I don't think we should put these drugs in our bodies the way we do. I felt like a guinea pig.