I Am In a Taken In Hand Relationship
Safe word?
Before we started this journey we agreed that if I was not interested in this life style any longer I would simply say "I don't want this kinda relationship any now" DONE. I can not say it to get out of punishment. I have to have a good reason.
We always joked around about if I ever needed a safe word (during sex) to just say "sandwich (with mayonnaise)" Lol a joke that always makes him laugh. I say I would yell of banana or something. It would be something other then no or stop. Because clearly no and stop in my mind mean to keep going.
We have also discussed how to make it known crossed the line in public. He always said "oh you will know". I have yet to do it. Phew.
But this Week i had a dream. We were all at a beach house. Friends and other adults no kids. I must of done something wrong and some one told him. I was sitting on the couch and he came over and I looked up to him. He handed me a piece of paper the read "batman". I remember feeling like my heart sank. I could feel that when I woke up. The look on his face was something I have never seen before. Not only did I cross the line but I knew he was disappointed in me. That's the worst ever! I don't remember what I did. I don't remember what the punishment was (shucks I know) but I do remember him holding me by the hair while I knelt before. He was towered over me and said "you are mine, have you forgotten?" "Maybe a reminder is what you need".
Why did I have to wake up? !?!? Lol
I hated waking up to that feeling maybe that was the point. I would have much rather woken up feeling like I was in sub space.
But batman? Dreams are crazy sometimes.
Before we started this journey we agreed that if I was not interested in this life style any longer I would simply say "I don't want this kinda relationship any now" DONE. I can not say it to get out of punishment. I have to have a good reason.
We always joked around about if I ever needed a safe word (during sex) to just say "sandwich (with mayonnaise)" Lol a joke that always makes him laugh. I say I would yell of banana or something. It would be something other then no or stop. Because clearly no and stop in my mind mean to keep going.
We have also discussed how to make it known crossed the line in public. He always said "oh you will know". I have yet to do it. Phew.
But this Week i had a dream. We were all at a beach house. Friends and other adults no kids. I must of done something wrong and some one told him. I was sitting on the couch and he came over and I looked up to him. He handed me a piece of paper the read "batman". I remember feeling like my heart sank. I could feel that when I woke up. The look on his face was something I have never seen before. Not only did I cross the line but I knew he was disappointed in me. That's the worst ever! I don't remember what I did. I don't remember what the punishment was (shucks I know) but I do remember him holding me by the hair while I knelt before. He was towered over me and said "you are mine, have you forgotten?" "Maybe a reminder is what you need".
Why did I have to wake up? !?!? Lol
I hated waking up to that feeling maybe that was the point. I would have much rather woken up feeling like I was in sub space.
But batman? Dreams are crazy sometimes.
41-45, F
