I Want Friends Who Are Actually Friends
I don't even know why I try to make friends they always end up getting me into trouble. Well that's a lie when I first came here I made friends with 3 girls who I really wasn't there friend but I used them and they used me. When I stopped hanging around them they jumped me and I got beat up pretty bad cause they are 3 of them and 1 of me but they did it at a real scheduled track practice and our coach managed to stop them after a while.
Then my stepmom wouldn't shut her big mouth until I invited Starr over because dad told her how Starr and I used to be best friends. I'm not 6 anymore. Anyway we were having fun and I thought maybe she had been right and Starr and I would become friend.
Wrong!!!
Yesterday I went to Starr's and was supposed to spend the night. We walked over to her Grandma's where they keep their 4-wheelers and went mudding on them. Her dad was over there and started yelling at her for us getting them all dirty, and I got really embarrassed for her and left.
This boy I know, Blaze gave me a ride home and I even admitted to my dad I got a ride home with Blaze and said it was because I was bored and nothing to do at Starr's, but he wouldn't leave me a lone and got all mad because my clothes were muddy. So I just told the truth about the 4-wheeler and mudding and her dad getting mad cause he didn't want them muddy for whatever reason. Then dad goes and calls her dad and he told him they don't even have 4-wheelers and he has no clue what I am talking about.
And dad believes him and not me. Cause well he is the adult and the one that is telling the truth and I've been nothing but trouble since I been here.
I don't know why her dad is lying to mine. And worse she called me twice today and maybe more before I lost my phone like she wants to be friends wtf. I think I should go back to live with my grandparents dad said I could when I agreed to come live with him if I didn't like it here. He doesn't believe me and he thinks Blaze and I were doing something. I didn't tell him I was thinking about going to live with my grandparents because before when I didn't mean it and would get into trouble I would say that a lot. I could tell it hurt him. This time I mean it. I can't fix how I behaved before and I can't tell him whatever it is he is expecting me to say to get out of trouble cause I told them what happened. Stepmom gave up said she believed me I just wish he would give up too. I still think going back to my grandparents is best. Then I would have friends again and could got back to do whatever I want cause trying to live with rules and things isn't easy especially when I am trying and it does no good.
Then my stepmom wouldn't shut her big mouth until I invited Starr over because dad told her how Starr and I used to be best friends. I'm not 6 anymore. Anyway we were having fun and I thought maybe she had been right and Starr and I would become friend.
Wrong!!!
Yesterday I went to Starr's and was supposed to spend the night. We walked over to her Grandma's where they keep their 4-wheelers and went mudding on them. Her dad was over there and started yelling at her for us getting them all dirty, and I got really embarrassed for her and left.
This boy I know, Blaze gave me a ride home and I even admitted to my dad I got a ride home with Blaze and said it was because I was bored and nothing to do at Starr's, but he wouldn't leave me a lone and got all mad because my clothes were muddy. So I just told the truth about the 4-wheeler and mudding and her dad getting mad cause he didn't want them muddy for whatever reason. Then dad goes and calls her dad and he told him they don't even have 4-wheelers and he has no clue what I am talking about.
And dad believes him and not me. Cause well he is the adult and the one that is telling the truth and I've been nothing but trouble since I been here.
I don't know why her dad is lying to mine. And worse she called me twice today and maybe more before I lost my phone like she wants to be friends wtf. I think I should go back to live with my grandparents dad said I could when I agreed to come live with him if I didn't like it here. He doesn't believe me and he thinks Blaze and I were doing something. I didn't tell him I was thinking about going to live with my grandparents because before when I didn't mean it and would get into trouble I would say that a lot. I could tell it hurt him. This time I mean it. I can't fix how I behaved before and I can't tell him whatever it is he is expecting me to say to get out of trouble cause I told them what happened. Stepmom gave up said she believed me I just wish he would give up too. I still think going back to my grandparents is best. Then I would have friends again and could got back to do whatever I want cause trying to live with rules and things isn't easy especially when I am trying and it does no good.
22-25, F
