I Question the Existence of God

Okay, if you are Catholic I see where you're coming from that love is only between a man and a woman. And that is generally what society says.... but the New Testament also says "love your neighbor as yourself" as the second greatest commandment of them all! Your neighbor is your gender, family, community, yes, the earth and all the animals within the earth.
Also, some people might say I'm weird because I believe both in evolution and religion. But I'm finding more and more people with that belief as I experience faith. God guided the Big Bang, God meant for evolution to happen and that is how the earth and all the species were created. I do not believe that the days in the creation story are a present day day, but millions of years... allowing for dinosaurs, their fossils, and all the different ages you read about in history textbooks.
It is not a question of whether you should believe in God or not. The question is whether you are thirsty for God. And if you are thirsty for Him, He is capable of revealing Himself to you in quite mysterious ways...
We all sin a lot, all the time may not be a stretch. But God is forgiving, merciful, for those who admit that what they did is wrong.
Read your Bible. That is a great idea. Interpret it in your own way. That's okay when you're defining your faith. Let no one convince you that there is one correct way to understand the Bible. Explore, talk it over with others, and if you are afraid, I do partially understand, so talk it over with me. I am a someone who you do not know at all, but a someone who will listen and try to help you find yourself. That's what's great about this site :)