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I Dont Know How to Feel

I'm 18, I have a large family. 4 sisters and one of them is my twin. My twin has been my best friend since birth and we have been through a lot. We talk a lot and we like to joke a lot with each other. Sometime ago my twin tried to leave out of no where with her boyfriend who lives in another state. We weren't out of school yet. Just another 1 and half months and she just stares at the family as if we have beat her, her entrie life. Me and her go out and talk for a bit until I find out what is going on. She has felt that she is more like a he. I don't have a problem with any of that. I hug my twin. My best friend. I tell him it'll be ok. My parents are surprised but furious at how he was trying to leave. My parents get the boyfriend to go home. We agreed that after school that he can move and we will help and send off with love. Not a week later he leave in the middle of the day when no one was home besides me. I begged for him not to leave. Not yet. He just left and I have felt just so hurt and broken. I lost my best friend. He has been trying to text me but I just feel so betrayed and hurt. He left with a family he had never met and only met them online and trusted them more than me or anyone else. I'll go over more later. Just not now

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drymer · 56-60, M

I can only imagine that your twin needs/wants to "break up" and disconnect with the past, because it's a part of his life he pretended to be who he wasn't and it may have been a very traumatic time in his life he just want to get over with, forget... This doesn't mean he doesn't care about you or that he doesn't miss you... He's probably as conflicted and confused as you are, wanting to start a "new life" yet missing the few good things of the life he's leaving behind (like you)..

Lonelyheart · 22-25, M

@drymer that's what I thought too until my parents started texting him. He felt this way about 2 years ago and met his boyfriend 3 years ago. The boyfriend's mom is a person who studies sexual orientation. My parents are still saying they believe they "groomed" him. Just to add to the mix. Not even a week my twin moves in the boyfriend's brother dies of an OD of herion. I have no problem with him wanting to start a new life. I would be happy but not the way he did it. I literally dropped to the ground having a panic attack and he just ignored it and walked there. I was there until my parents got home, crying.

drymer · 56-60, M

That really sucks... But such is life, there are some punches life throws at us that come out of the blue, for no reason whatsoever. Say, when a loving, caring husband finds out his wife has been cheating on him and wants a divorce. We simply have no control over other people's feelings and decisions. You'll have to pick yourself up and move on. You know you did your best, and I hope you can find the strength and wisdom to love yourself as much as you love your twin brother and overcome all this...

Footsugar123 · M

May be you should answer the text, he could be trying to explain why he has left in that manner, I know it must have hurt badly but if you let that hurt grow and fester, it could be worse. You love your twin don't let this ruin that love. It's hard to turn things around when you wait for a long time to reconcile. People make mistakes in life and try and learn from them, go on and text him back, he can't be feeling any happier about the situation then you are. Text ok 👌
Rick

Goralski · 51-55, M

Something weird is goin on

Lonelyheart · 22-25, M

@Goralski ya, my family keep coming up with theories but I don't care about them. He left on him choice

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