I Want Personal Growth

I do want personal growth but have you ever felt stuck and unmoving? What do you do when growth seems out of reach or at a stand still?

All my life I've moved towards anything mostly because standing still made it feel like the world around me would collapse. I've made progress in many aspects but now I am faced with a problem that I do not know how to solve. My partner is in a constantly suffering state because their life stands still. Any solution my brain comes up with seems to center around my very unhealthy coping mechanisms.

"Do more, surround yourself more, try anything and everything, keep moving forward".

All lovely thoughts in general but they are also a means to run away from your own feelings and lead to mostly superficial interactions. I want to contribute to other's life, I want to contribute to his life. And the thought that his days move by without a purpose crushes my spirit. Because it is not about doing more, or being more, or moving more. It's about having a purposeful and meaningful life where each day counts, where each day you move towards personal growth, where you make a permanent change.

I want to be a person that contribute something to his life that is everlasting. Something new and exciting! I am desperate and so is he. Each day that passes is another day filled with emptiness.