Any public transportation? Any nearby jobs that you can walk/cycle to? Any friends you can stay with or carpool with? It sounds like you can't depend on your mother to help you and you can't stop trying if you want your situation to change. I would start asking for help outside of this website and see what kind of resources are out there to help you get on your feet. I'm sorry you've hit rough times, but thank your mother for the gift of resilience. If any blessing comes from hard times, it's that. You will make it through and you will be better and stronger for it.

You’re not a loser. I admire for trying. I know I’m just one person. But there are many of us hoping, because its what we do. We hope that others are making it.

Btw, I loaned my car to my step daughter. She crashed it. Totaled it.
We cant afford another one. She uses a bike and lots of deodorant.