I Dislike Deadbeat Parents

My mom is one and I hate her for it! I love my mom but now it's harder to love her.
My mom told me the real reason why she walked out on is. It's because I had a disability and she didn't want a disabled child. She said I was a mistake. I'm trying to make things work but it just didnt wrk out! I'll never get my mom to parent me. I want my mother!! I can't stay with her! I guess that's why my dad kept trying to keep me from my mother and he said I don't need her and she doesn't care about us.
I love mom but she doesn't love me as a daughter at all.
I'm going home tomorrow morning. I can't even talk to her or look at her anymore.