It is both a mess but also a void.This is what I feel like my mind has become lately. It has become a mush of loneliness, insecurities, fear, resentment. But I also feel like there is nothing of substance, it is just a mess. Like trash. Attempts at upcycling into some semblance of... See More »
Writings from the vault: AftermathI’m supposed to feel safe. Relieved. but all I feel is lost. The fire has finally died down. There is no danger hiding in the shadows. It’s like for a period of time, I was fueled by adrenaline, not blood. My breaths propelled by panic, not my... See More »
Writings from the vault: DustI feel it in my chest, making it hard to breathe sometimes. The grief, the yearning, the wishing. A twisted little knot, the atrophied remains of a future that once was. Now I build, brick by brick, a new path towards a new future. Dust in my... See More »
The quiet brings peacebut it also invites unwanted thoughts. Thoughts of how different my life is from how I thought it would be at this age. Sometimes I feel a pang of loss, but it doesn’t seem to make sense to grieve something you never had. How does one grieve the l... See More »
What are some shows or movies that were packed with actors who later became famous?Law and Order: Special Victims Unit had a surprising number of now-famous actors as guests in their earlier seasons.
It’s June. Time for a mid-year review of your life.KPIs for movement critically unmet. Remediation required to close gap. Gap has widened. Remediation of remediation now required.
I’m just a girlstanding in front of a donut. Telling herself she shouldn't eat it. You know how in cartoons there's a little angel on one shoulder and a little devil on the other, representing your conscience vs your impulse? Mine are both demons. They are both... See More »
What’s something normal that would seem weird to an alien?Traffic lights are glowing pillars that show the earthlings where to go in their wheeled contraptions.
ReflectionsI realise now that I need to stop expecting rewards out of surviving tough situations. The reward is resilience… so you can survive tougher situations. That’s just how life is.
What are some shows you can’t stop recommending to people?The Good Place Ted Lasso I cannot describe how much I love these two shows. I rewatch them when I am in need of a good laugh and/or cry (2)
What’s the last book you read?Mine: Strange Buildings by Uketsu Don’t have much bandwidth to get through anything complex these days