Ah honey... what is the matter? Yes, life is full of grief and despair. But there are good things too, you just have to look for them. I think it is important to have friends and hobbies that you enjoy to help get you through the hard times. It takes effort and action. You cannot sit and wait for happiness to find you; you have to find it. Think of some goals that will help bring you out of this and make an action plan of things you can do to improve things, then do them.