I Am Afraid I Already Am Nothing

I cant find where i want to write and i cant make a group thing.

I am afraid today
Ive cried my tears of fears today
And were are you?
I am afraid i am sick.
I am afraid to do this on my own
I am afraid you will leave me if i am
I am afraid i cant express myself today
I am afraid i will turn you away
I am afraid that it has concumed my thoughts all morning
I am afraid that you are not here or there
I am afraid my head is killing me my jaw is locking my flare up is strong today
I am afraid of this pain
I afraid ive lost all my words today