I Don't Work At the Moment

I have had a lot of people say " wow! You don't work. It must be so cool to do what you want every day. You must be so lazy"

I'm not. I'd love to work. But I wake up everyday wondering when I'm going to have a seizure, if my anxiety is going to make me look like an idiot. Will I black out? Will I stutter? I can't work. I have mental health that makes me a danger, I can't work because I have seizures. I'd love to, earn extra money get away from my partner instead of relying on government pay just to get by. I'd love to instead of getting judged when I say I don't work as a persons first initial response is to be nasty and when you do explain it they ask all these questions.

I don't work, and it isn't because I'm lazy or through any fault of my own. I'd love to.
I can only hope that I get better in the future.