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Jesus Fuck, I have no idea. People weren't meant to be alone, so I'm not sure what I'm worth as an individual. In thought and intention, I try to be of as little inconvenience to others as possible, and I like to make people feel good when I can, but in actuality, I am probably a real inconvenience to everyone. Does that mean I don't value myself? I value that I'm humble and honest, but I don't consider most anyone else to be worth more, or as any less of a shithead than I am. Humans are naturally destructive and it takes self-education to realize that fact and to choose to tread carefully, and I am hyper-aware of this, and I believe everyone within functioning mental capacity has the capacity to choose to behave in a way that doesn't intentionally or negligently harm others. I'm not sure humans are worth much without regarding humankind as a whole. Hard to say, unfortunately, with the state of the world, and the state of my mind, but that's nothing new. There's so much support needed for just one person, so how can we say we are alone, in our successes and failures? Somehow, there are many humans out there, too, who are willing to help each other... These thoughts are incomplete, but I'm moving on to something more relevant, I hope.
I am just beginning to discover my "self" and how to recognize my own ideas, and, more importantly, doubts, in comparison to and separate from others'. I have never thought of myself as separate from others, although it's always been clear that I am different from others. I am still struggling to grasp the idea that there may be a day when I am totally alone in this world, but until that happens I'll do what I can to survive among all of these "individuals" who only think for themselves, and try not to be too affected. Maybe there is something I lack that makes me a weaker link in the social chain, therefore submitting me to disadvantage from the start. It often seems that way, when I refuse to take advantage of others for economic or social gain, yet I am often the victim of others' selfish behavior in those subjects. Everyone behaves selfishly in their own ways, yes, but through my experience, I am not selfish when it comes to using and considering people as a commodity. Maybe there's really something wrong with me; I'm sure there are plenty of titles for my condition. I am part of a community of the human species, and if I was alone, would I be worth as much? My ability to help others, maybe, while keeping myself in relative health? Maybe that's what I'm worth, somehow, if I can find a way to do that. I still consider much of my own behavior to be selfish, but there is a certain degree of necessity for that in order to survive. The world of People is a hard place, with everyone's separate realities clashing, with all the dysfunction, manipulation, abuse. I guess, ultimately, I am worth my intentional avoidance of those things, refusing to use people while knowing that I need others to survive, and doing the best I can to help, or at least pass the time without bloodshed until the inevitable end of our relative Earth and sun.
I am just beginning to discover my "self" and how to recognize my own ideas, and, more importantly, doubts, in comparison to and separate from others'. I have never thought of myself as separate from others, although it's always been clear that I am different from others. I am still struggling to grasp the idea that there may be a day when I am totally alone in this world, but until that happens I'll do what I can to survive among all of these "individuals" who only think for themselves, and try not to be too affected. Maybe there is something I lack that makes me a weaker link in the social chain, therefore submitting me to disadvantage from the start. It often seems that way, when I refuse to take advantage of others for economic or social gain, yet I am often the victim of others' selfish behavior in those subjects. Everyone behaves selfishly in their own ways, yes, but through my experience, I am not selfish when it comes to using and considering people as a commodity. Maybe there's really something wrong with me; I'm sure there are plenty of titles for my condition. I am part of a community of the human species, and if I was alone, would I be worth as much? My ability to help others, maybe, while keeping myself in relative health? Maybe that's what I'm worth, somehow, if I can find a way to do that. I still consider much of my own behavior to be selfish, but there is a certain degree of necessity for that in order to survive. The world of People is a hard place, with everyone's separate realities clashing, with all the dysfunction, manipulation, abuse. I guess, ultimately, I am worth my intentional avoidance of those things, refusing to use people while knowing that I need others to survive, and doing the best I can to help, or at least pass the time without bloodshed until the inevitable end of our relative Earth and sun.
Silverfox420 · 36-40, F
SW-User
I think my self-worth is based on how attractive I feel as a person. I know that a lot of people need me because of what I can do, but I find that if I feel like I am not needed, I feel like I am not worth anything. I don't know if that makes sense. I feel like if I couldn't bring anything tangible, I'm not worth anything because people don't seek me out. Like my personality isn't worth anything.
Silverfox420 · 36-40, F
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