I No Longer Love Christmas Like I Used To

So Christmas is less than a month away, and I'm not ready for it. Like where has this year gone?
I don't hate Christmas I just dislike it. It's always so stressful even more so when I have to put up with all the family rubbish and having parents that are divorced only adds to the stress levels.
Arghhhh..... I just. I'm not mentally prepared for it yet.