@dragon56 not so much that .. but my mind since young tends to think in terms of fairness . excepting it starts bumping next to duality .. for me to live greatness i must first live yuckness . or if i live greatness now, then later there must be yuckness .. and its just a bad belief ..

wealthy times <> poor times .. happy times <> sad times .. etc ..

i dont fully believe in duality of stuff .. that in order for one to know n appreciate happiness, one must be able to contrast it to sadness .. etc