It sounds very well that you indeed had an awakening. It's quite refreshing to read that you think this way about difficult experiences. Quite a sign of spiritual maturity. The circumstances of both our journeys are quite different but the overall message of these experiences are quite remarkably exact. I'm recalling when I first awoke to my true nature and from that day forward I had followed that path. Today is a beautiful day. My state of mind is contentment. Inner peace and being whole and one with everything. I'm glad I saw this. Thank you Tenderheart. I hope that as time goes on. More and more experiences will be revealed to myself and you. And many others.