@SimplyTracie True. Nobody wants to deal with someone who doesn't take good care of themselves, is moody all the time and has no good to offer that's for sure. Besides, I hate dealing with drama and I prefer not to become like those who mistreat me as that only makes feel pathetic and worse than I already do. I may still end up spending my life alone and hurting like I always have but, at least I will still have a much easier time living with myself and achieving my goal.