Depends on if im on a self-esteam train 😀🏭

It goes up, it goes down. I get optimistic, then reality disappoints me. Really it's a miracle that I keep hoping in the face of reality.

I'm pretty good at kicking my ass.

I have a healthy self esteem.

My self esteem is low, and I'm very self deprecating.

A friend told me I'm the only person he knows that seeks validation on how bad a person I am.

Decreasing it and it tends to develop self sabotaging behaviours

Im good at increasing it, but that is only because i have no real reason to decrease it. Only when other brings me down I can get a bit selfdestructive.