The constant grind of it. Go to work, apply for more jobs, get insurance, go to appointments, count your pennies, work more, go home and get nagged, pay bills, every damned day. Fuck all of that.

🤔 hmm, probably too many work day/hours a week no real free time.

Writing checks.

just dealing with people.

Realising all the messed up games the adults around me having been playing, over the years. That by the time I got to this age I had at least hoped I would be happy and in love even if I didn't have anything else. That I was on the path to finding my success...

[i]-I'm barely living. [/i]

Paying the bills

heh, "adult-ing"? it's like a thing now? Maybe that's the disliked part, a label suggesting "having arrived" at a certain plateau.... hmmm.... go beyond the label, and you'll find life more interesting, challenging and rewarding. Go on, try it.

All of it.

I can't drop to the floor and throw a tantrum when I don't get my way.

Meh... You get used to it after a few decades.. :/

Bills/Finances

Cooking

Bills.

Bills, taxes, and work.

Paying bills.